Jun 092011
 

It’s a word that comes to mind when I think of how easily Whitman can turn me on  and draw me in  using just his voice or his words, spoken or typed.

It’s like “submissive + seduction”.

He doesn’t need to seduce me with talk  of romantic dinners, massages, and wine (even though we often enjoy all of those).

I’m seduced by his talk of submission. Specifically, his talk of ME submitting to HIM. The darker and dirtier his ideas and words are, the hotter and wetter I get. I dream of being able to completely give myself to his sexy whims, even though there are still things I struggle with. Deeper, deeper, and deeper I go.

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Check THIS out: The REAL definition of ‘subduction’? “the process by which one tectonic plate moves under another tectonic plate.”  It is sort of like that, isn’t it??

Jun 082011
 

I wrote a couple of weeks ago about people having particular and personal masturbation styles. I’m a two-fingers on the clit hood girl, myself. I just sort of drag/massage my fingers in a firm circle, and BAM! I don’t need any penetration, just the rubbing. Speaking of rubbing, I just realized as an adult, that oftentimes younger girls will hump their teddy bears, or pillows, or the bed, whatever. I never did this. Apparently I was missing out as a teen! Speaking of NOT rubbing, I’d really like to learn the mind-cum trick…being able to think myself off (!), or cum on a verbal command from Whitman with no touching necessary. Maybe one day.

For now, this is the closest I get to cumming in my panties – when I watch this video. I’m not sure what it is about this, but wow, does it make me wet! It’s even better with sound.
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I’m not sure how it came up, but about a year ago, I had a sudden (and very unusual) urge to HUMP something, something like my pillow. I DIDN’T, because it seemed a little odd and not “my thing” (see: habits, above), and because there’s something slightly humiliating and "public" about masturbating this way. I mentioned my urge to Whitman one day while we were dirty chatting working, and he sent me this video. I got SO. TURNED. ON. It was insane.

He then instructed me to masturbate on camera (yes! at my office!) for him. I did. (speaking of slightly publicly humiliating…)
Then I was HORNIER THAN EVER. He told me to go home and yes, actually hump my pillow that night. I did. It was incredibly hot. Something about that orgasm was very intense, yet somehow unfulfilling. It seemed muffled, like it had a pillow over it. Go figure.

I haven’t really done it since, but I’m feeling that urge again. I just watched “the pillow-humping video” (as I call it) again. I couldn’t could barely keep my two fingers out of my panties AGAIN. Fuck. Is it 5 o’clock yet?

Jun 062011
 

I hopped naked into the pool. Whitman was already there, waiting. I walked over to him in the shallow end. As we kissed (okay, made out like teenagers!), he pulled a raft up behind me and between my legs so I could hop on. “Lie back,” he said. I did. Whitman pulled the float deeper, so that my hips were level with his mouth. He folded the raft down for better access, and began to gently lick around my clit.
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I could hear the water that was pooling in the raft lapping against his chin and my ass. I tried to sit up a little to watch, but he reminded me to lie back, (mostly for balance in the water, I think, but again, I did). The feeling of the hot, hot (90+ degrees) sun beating down on my naked body, my feet free-floating around his shoulders, my hands gripping the raft above my head and the gentle warm breeze touching my skin all combined to make this a crazy-hot once in a lifetime lovefest.

WOW. I was as free as could be, but there was a slight feeling of being restrained as I floated. I lifted my feet to rest on his shoulders, and let my hands trail in the water, but I couldn’t really move without capsizing my raft. So I was still. I opened my eyes, and saw the perfect orb of the sun shining down on me and listened to the birds cheering at the free show they were getting as Whitman kept up the perfect steady pressure with his tongue, and I came. so. hard.

Have I mentioned how much I love this man?

Jun 012011
 

I’ve long held the belief that men are one or the other. Sure, there’s a random ‘leg man’ out there, or a ‘foot fetish’ outlier, but I mean generally speaking – it’s ass or tits. I’ve even used that question as an icebreaker…often. “Are you an ass man or a boob man?”

I’m more well-endowed with ass than tits. Everyone I’ve ever been with has been basically ass-obsessed. Whitman is not. He’s a boob man. He wouldn’t completely admit that early on in our relationship, but I’ve come to realize that it’s true.

Thank goodness that my theory seems to hold true… (this seems backwards, but stay  with me for this one…)

An “ass man” will appreciate ANY ass. They love them all, and really love a REALLY NICE ONE, but a boob man has to see a REALLY. NICE. ASS. to be moved by it.

Same goes for a “breast man” – they seem to like all tits, big OR small, and maybe appreciate gorgeous ones a little more, but ass men could care less about breasts unless they’re extra-gorgeous.

Now, that being said, my breasts are not extra-anything…not extra-large, extra-small, extra-gorgeous. Whitman appreciates them, and even talks of how hot they’d be pierced.
I don’t know how to be a ‘boob man’s girl’, though! I’m used to being able to stand a certain way to teasingly accentuate my ass, or wear a certain dress that shows my curves. It’s always been so easy to do.

I don’t seem to have that magical ability to pose myself so that my breasts seem ‘pounce-able’!

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(I will say this new bra sort of makes it look like I had a boob job. That seemed to work to my advantage.)

May 272011
 

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I read an article once that claimed people learn to masturbate using a preferred
method / position / stroke / whatever, and never. change. ever.
I believe this. I’ve been masturbating in essentially the same way all these years. (This is very likely why I have a hard time getting off with out my legs in a certain. way. Yes, just… like… that.)

Enough about me…I started thinking about watching Whitman jerk off (OMG SO HOTT) and thought “Ohmygod, what if he’d done something totally strange* because he didn’t know I was watching?!?! What if he sucked his thumb, or spanked his own ass, or had some funny little quirk that only he knows about??
Would this man, who I find to be irresistibly hot and sexy become less so? More so?

*I do mean “strange” in a totally NON-JUDGMENTAL way. To each his own. What I mean here is “non-standard.”

May 252011
 

I lay sleeping, dozing really, next to Whitman in our heavenly king-size hotel bed. We’d just returned from visiting a strip club, where we’d spent the past couple of hours ogling pretty young things. I’d also inadvertently purchased something between a lap dance and a body shot (more on that later) which probably looked pretty hot. We were naked, cuddling, watching a movie on the laptop. Well, HE was watching…

Whitman was wide awake, a little hyper, and a lot horny.  I, on the other hand, was feeling like I’d quit drinking way too long ago, had too much insanely good dinner, and quite crampy. (Can you believe it? The Sex Fairy called a time out for PMS?!)

As I dozed, Whitman slipped off to the bathroom, and then I heard him come out into the dark room and walk to the desk. I opened my eyes, but didn’t move. He never looked at me, just proceeded to open the laptop and settle in to the desk chair, working his cock with his right hand, intently watching the screen, and just as intently working the mouse with his left hand. (Yes! Left-handed! Very impressive, isn’t it?!)

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I wanted to move enough to touch myself as I watched, but I didn’t want to remind him that I was there. I also REALLY fantasized about sliding from under the duvet and crawling on my hands and knees from the big fluffy bed to the hard cold floor under the desk, just to make my mouth available. Just in case. Just in case Whitman wanted to fuck my mouth, or cum in my mouth…I wanted to be there for him. In the end, though, my inner voyeur won out. (I didn’t even know I HAD an inner voyeur!!)

Yes, I  thought of participating, or verbally encouraging him, but I was mostly fascinated. I love to watch Whitman touch himself, and I’ve seen it before, but he’s always known I was watching. This was different. It was a totally private moment, but there I was…part of it. It was quick and dirty. Whitman is an expert ‘take-your-time’ masturbator, but he was a man on a mission this time. He stroked, his eyes darting rapidly across the screen, his left hand changing the view. I could see his orgasm building on his face, in his eyes, and in the way he moved. The tension built as he stroked faster, slower, faster, and finally he stood up and I recognized immediately his preferred orgasm stance.

I smiled to myself and I DID touch myself then. I was too late to cum with him, but I grinned as I watched his final strokes from my dark hideout. I was in awe of the silence (he’s usually got a beastly sounding orgasm, which I LOVE) and the efficiency of his action. He cleaned up, and as he closed the laptop, I spoke through my smile.

“That was hot.”

May 062011
 

 

not meSo, apparently MAY is National Masturbation Month. I’m not sure who decided this, and I’m pretty sure it wasn’t a congressional decree (like, say…National DANCE DAY), but it’s all over the internet, so it must be real! I don’t know about the rest of you, but In my world, it’s Masturbation Month EVERY MONTH!!

Whitman has recently let me know that I’ll need his permission to pleasure myself. I’m happy to observe this rule. BUT, hopefully observance of this IMPORTANT NATIONAL commemorative month will buy me some (play)time and keep me out of the Naughty Points.

I’m going to let Whitman know about National Masturbation Month, which of course shall now be known as the month of “May I?”

May 022011
 

Sex Fairy here, reporting in on a minor sexual accident over the weekend:

During some particularly vigorous deep-throat cocksucking (somewhat inspired by reading some sexy cock-choking blog entries and comments last week), I pulled my head back to…
I don’t know…swallow saliva? Breathe? Lick my lips? I really do know better.

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It matters not WHAT I was doing, because at that point, Whitman grabbed my head by a handful of hair and forced his cock up and my head down at the same time. Except instead of me expertly wrapping my tongue around the underside of his cock, his cock rammed the underside of my tongue.

Oops.

This was only momentarily painful, and even then only slightly so. I could tell something was not quite right, though. After finishing up with the sucking, fucking, spanking, and cum, I checked the mirror. WHOA. As I suspected, something was not quite right.

Even though it’s only slightly sore, there was, and still is, a giant bruise under my tongue. Looks like I got away without tearing the frenulum, but because this is in my mouth, the bruise looks like a giant blood blister. It actually resembles raw meat under my tongue. I’m still chuckling about this, two days later.

Lesson learned here? Keep my tongue where it belongs at all times!!   ;)

Apr 272011
 

counting days. or naughty points?As I’ve mentioned before, Whitman and I are working against distance and time apart in our relationship. We’ve had what I consider to be QUITE A BIT of time apart lately, and I miss him terribly. I was actually in a bit of a snit when he left last time, and have been only marginally better in between. (I actually told him ‘maybe you should stay home then.’)
<GASP!> (um…yes, naughty point added.)

I am contrite / We made up.

He let me know on Monday that he would see me Thursday night, (even though we both have Wednesday and Thursday off). I MENTIONED (again) that I was available Wednesday, too. He said he’d see me Thursday.  I’ve been so disappointed.  I was feeling so desperate to see him. I wanted to SHOW him how much I miss him when he’s gone, how much I need him near me always. I was starting to feel so needy, and the desire to just fall to the floor when I see him and latch on to his legs with both arms…like a toddler having a breakdown…was looming large.

TODAY he let me know he could be here today.

SexFairy: omgahhhhhh I’m so fucking glad you’re coming here!!!! I didn’t want to ask again. :)
Whitman: I always was. You just need to learn some submissive desperation.

HOW DID HE KNOW??!!

Apr 212011
 

When Whitman and I go out to dinner, he never orders the same thing twice. (Okay, maybe ‘rarely’ not ‘never’). He’s always looking for a challenge, an adventure, something new. He loves to try new things, to learn new things, to meet new people.

I realized very early in our relationship that the only way I’d be able to keep his attention (no matter HOW MUCH in love we are) is to continually challenge him, evolve, shake things up a little every now and then.

You know, switch from thongs to boy shorts.

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When I met him I was a blonde. Now I’m a brunette. I like it.I’ve changed from my ‘standard’ nail polish color to a veritable rainbow over time. I like this, too.
Back then I had (some) pubic hair, then I went Brazilian for a while, now I have a landing strip.
I like that, as well.

I wonder what else is on the menu?