I’m counting down to my surgery – FOUR DAYS!! Have I mentioned how excited I am??
This surgery isn’t my first ‘pussy procedure,’ though. About twenty years ago, I decided, “Well, if I’m going to have these giant labia, I should be proud of them.” I called my friend the midwife and asked what she thought about piercing one for me (This was just before the rise of body piercing professionals and studios). What she thought about it was that I was absolutely crazy. I then explained (and cajoled): “They’re just there. Like earlobes. Why not??” She finally gave in. I went to her office and she pierced me, inserted the jewelry, and made me promise never to tell anyone. I felt like I had a sexy secret in my panties for years, and then a couple of years ago, I just tired of it. I took the jewelry out. My lips went back to being unremarkable, except for their size.
And now, here I am. After years of gazing longingly at photos of neat little pussies without dangling lips, I’m about to have one of my own. I can picture exactly how I will look. My inner lips will just lightly ruffle along the outer lips, and not the other way around. For the past few weeks, every time I’ve been to the bathroom, I end up examining my lady lips. When I get undressed to shower, I play “let’s pretend”: I tuck the big parts in and smile at how it looks. I get excited about the surgery all over again.
All of a sudden, though, all I see are photos of big labia. They’re everywhere! (Have you seen Tumblr this week??) What if I miss mine when they’re gone? Will I spend the next twenty years mourning the loss of “a part of me”? Will I constantly be thinking or saying “I used to have big labia”? Will I regret this?
I’m really happy that you’ve made a decision that (I hope) will ultimately make you happier about yourself. However, you mentioned in a comment to a previous post about your surgery that this isn’t just for cosmetic reasons… “but for practical reasons as well.”
I assumed the “practical reasons” were because of inhibited function or discomfort. For my own selfish reasons, I hope I interpreted that correctly. However, you haven’t mentioned the other reasons.
I hope you do have other reasons… not just aesthetic ones. Even with that said, I can’t blame you. I have epically large labia and I hate them with all of my heart. I’ve considered surgery, but ruled it out for the time being (for cost prohibitive and ideological reasons).
I’d love to hear more about the other reasons… of only to make myself feel better!
DD,
Thanks for reading!
The practical reasons are, yes, just discomfort and inconvenience. My labia get in the way during sex, they pinch if I walk any distance wearing jeans, they show through a bathing suit, etc. etc.
HOWEVER, I’ve lived with that all these years. I would definitely say without shame that form outweighs function for me in this case. I mostly hate the way they look.